Sobbing, that is.
Tonight, on the ride home from going to Clinton, UT for my old roommates wedding reception, I was listening to "No One is Alone" from Into the Woods. However, this wasn't the version from the original Broadway cast recording. It was Bernadette Peters singing a beautiful solo.
For some reason, that song, and the night, and being alone, and feeling sad for my parents problems, my problems, my friends problems, and I just started crying. No. Sobbing.
My Voice and Diction professor keeps telling us to "...let the iron gate that holds in emotion to let go." So, I did.
And it was...scary at first. I sounded like a child, but in mans body. But, it felt so good. It felt so relieving. It felt so liberating.
I just wish there was someone to hold me when it was all over.
I could go for a good crying session myself...
ReplyDeleteYou should have come over here and cried with me. I can usually start crying at the drop of a hat...you know, about the usual stuff.
ReplyDeleteLet it out Andy and now that you are loved. :) By me but mostly by your Heavenly Father.
Funny enough I had the same experience with Into the Woods not long after I came out two years ago. A lot of valuable lessons to be learned from Sondheim.
ReplyDeleteI've had many musical experiences like that. I cry in my car a lot. The crappy part is that nobody knows, and you end up hiding it by the time you get to your destination, so the hugging that is needed after a good cry is never there. I feel ya. I wish I was in Provo right now so I could come and see you. Sending my love and thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteA good cry is cathartic. I feel like a new man when I wipe away my tears and wring out the handkerchief. The best part, though, is the follow-up hug. Without one, it's pretty hard to come to closure.
ReplyDeleteCrying actually releases a sedative into your body and that is why it does such a good job at making you feel better!
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