Have you ever had those days when you feel like the dam that you have been building for the last few weeks is slowly crumbling and the awful tide of rushing water is about to come cascading down through the canyon and destroy everything in its path?
Well, that's how I feel today.
But, I can't tell if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Crying is good. I want to cry. I am just afraid when it will happen. I know it's coming, and something small might set it off.
I have been working extremely hard at my new job. It's stressful, but I love it. I help provide support to the customers who are having issues...and strangely, it's always the same people. I am trying to learn as fast as I can, but I have always struggled for perfection, and this isn't an exception.
I have also been thinking a lot about what the future holds for me. I was going to transfer to the U, but I am thinking of staying at BYU and majoring in Theatre Ed or Theatre Prod or Music. I just want to be Mr. Shuchster. I love musicals. I love theatre. I love show choirs. I. Would. Be. An. Awesome. Teacher. This is what I really enjoy and love doing. But accepting the fact that my life will "only" amount to that of a teacher, is hard to accept.
In addition, I have been wondering if I will ever find the right man for me. I am not actively looking for a boyfriend. Maybe that's my problem. But, I don't want to have to go to weird chat sites or Connexion or nappy gay bars/clubs. I just want to meet someone in a normal place. *le sigh* It's just not like that in Provo, though.
Bleh. I just re-read this post. It's kinda sad sounding. I am kinda sad feeling today, so I guess that makes sense.
So...apparently, Liberace is my Celebrity Look-Alike. (Look Below)
Liberace, eh? I can see the resemblance. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad your job is looking good. You inspire me to want to get a job.