Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Tenho Medo

There is nothing so unchanging, so inevitable as change itself. The things we see, touch, and feel are always changing. Relationships between friends, husband and wife, father and son, brother and sister are all dynamic, changing relationships. There is a constant that allows us to use change for our own good, and that constant is the revealed eternal truths of our Heavenly Father.

-Elder Marvin J. Ashton

I applied for the University of Utah yesterday. I filled out the application online, paid the $45.00 fee and now I wait. I am pretty sure that I will get accepted. I am 26 points over the cut off rate of 90. I am more than likely to be admitted. I am just afraid.

As I write this, I have butterflies in my stomach. Is this the Spirit telling me to stay away from Salt Lake City? Or is it just the natural nervous reaction to a complete change? I can't decide.

However, I did get a lot of help from you readers and friends. About 77% of you said to live in Salt Lake. It's just going to be a huge change. But, as the above quote mentions, change is never ending. It allows us to grow and become the people we are destined to become.

I feel like I am annoying and bombarding most of you with this lame problem of going to the University of Utah. I feel complacent at BYU. I feel safe here. This is where my adult life began.

Anyway, venting about my feelings helped a lot. The above quote and talk helped, too.

What are some specific reasons you moved/would move to Salt Lake City?



P.S. This will hopefully be my last post about moving/transferring. Well, at least the scary change aspect of it.
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5 comments:

  1. I'm biased, both my wife and I went to the U and we loved it!!

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  2. Andy, isn't it funny how we both came to the same conclusion of leaving BYU on our own? Since I started considering it, I've found other blogs of people in the same boat. Seeing others doing the same thing helps remind me that I'm not completely insane.

    Change is definitely scary. Last night I was agonizing over it. "Why am I leaving?" "Why am I giving up?" Why am I going to waste a free education from a prodigious school?" "How can I possibly be happy away from the church?"

    Honestly, it's terrifying. I'm glad you're going to UofU. I may end up there next winter.

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  3. Andy:

    A little advice from somebody ahead of you on the life path. Be prudent and think things through, but once you've made an educated, best-reasoned decision, give it every effort. Don't look back. Don't second-guess yourself (if you've done your homework). Fear and doubt and re-hashing things will only make you a cringing wimp. And you're not that.

    Fear is so incredibly debilitating. So push yourself forward and look for new adventures and new things to learn. I say this as one who cowered fearful in the closet for too many years. Don't imprison yourself in complacency. Embrace new places, new experiences, new people, new things, new knowledge. The world is so vast and full of marvelous things and friends yet to make. BYU is a nice little cocoon but it is NOT the world. Get out of there. You will be so much happier.

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  4. I almost didn't get into the U. I had to talk to the admissions counselor and then I got in on probation.With those grades you should be perfectly fine. I really enjoyed the LDS Frats on campus, they are a great tool.(No pun intended.)

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  5. I think you are just experiencing some perfectly normal stress and anxiety about a major change in your life. For me, leaving BYU was one of the most difficult things I have ever done. Career wise, it was the best decision I could have ever made, and I think it has also been a huge help in other areas as well.

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