I wish there was something I could do so others could be happy. Being "gay" or struggling with "ssa" does not make us bad people. We are literal children of God and that is something someone can definitely be happy about!!! Being attracted to the same sex does not make us sinners. Not getting married does not make us bad people. Not seeing that "light at the end of the tunnel" does not make us bad people! We are human! We make mistakes! We are here on this earth to learn, to love, to grow, to become what God wants us to become.
I have a dear friend that is struggling with SSA. Most of his friends are gay and he says that he does not know one gay person that doesn't drink or isn't happy. I cannot believe that. Even if people were to live the lifestyle, what is stopping them from being happy? Even if they DON'T live the lifestyle, (which we all hope is the case), what is stopping them from being happy?
I have been "gay" or attracted to men my entire life. Let me tell you, it has not been easy. I remember times when I wish that God would just take this "curse" away from me and make me straight, or make be a better person. When I realized that being attracted to men, or being gay, does not make me a bad person, I became happier. We have to accept ourselves as who we are. We have to. If we don’t, our lives will be filled with anger, hatred and sadness. There is no other way. Acceptance is the key.
Don’t misunderstand me. I am not condoning that lifestyle. I know that the church is true, and I know that Joseph Smith restored the gospel. But I know that people have their free agency and I know that they can choose whatever it is that they want to do. I cannot tell them what choices to make. I cannot tell them who to love. I cannot tell them what to do. It is not my place. I believe that there are too many people in this church and in the world that try to tell others what to do. People have their free agency and we cannot take that away from them.
I really don’t know where this is going. I just feel so bad for those men and women out there who are wallowing in the depths of their own personal Hells because they cannot accept who they are. I feel sadness for my brothers and sisters who think that God has abandoned them. I feel sad for those who think that there is no turning back. I tell you, that there is! I know there is! We are on this earth to be happy. “Adam fell that men might be and men are that they might have joy”. The Fall of our Father Adam, happened for a reason. What reason might that be? SO WE CAN BE HAPPY!!!
I want to write a book. I want to give seminars. I want people to know that happiness can be achieved in this life, regardless of who we are! I feel hopeless. Not for myself, but for others. I am saddened that they are sad. What can I do to make them know that happiness is around the corner if they just take the effort to walk past the building in front of them?
