Ever since I was a little kid, I made movies. I bought my first camcorder when I was twelve years old and four subsequent ones. I just recently bought a brand new one, with the hopes that I would be accepted to the film major at Brigham Young University. However, this was my last time applying and they did not accept me.
When I read the email with that fateful phrase, "...we regret to inform you..." my heart sank a little bit. I said a few swear words and I got up from the couch and went about my night with my family. I've been home for the last two days and it has been very nice being around a good support system.
I thought I was going to be miserable the rest of the week. I am actually really excited! I get to start a new chapter in my life. I get to...start over. I am thinking of transferring to the University of Utah. I would major in Communications with an emphasis on PR and Advertising. I think going to the U would be an interesting change of scene for me.
PROS:
(1) Starting over. I can go to a new school, make new friends, turn a new leaf.
(2) I won't have to apply to my major. It's open. If I want to major in that field of education, I will just fill out papers and that's that.
(3) I will be away from the Provo bubble. I will be around people who are members of the Church and those who are not.
(4) There will be openly gay people there. That will be refreshing.
(5) I get to live in the city. Even though Salt Lake really isn't like New York or something, it's the perfect size between a metropolis and downtown.
(6) I can see shows, listen to new bands, go to art museums, learn new things, etc.
CONS:
(1) It will be a huge change. I like change, but I am afraid that I will do something stupid.
(2) There are openly gay people there. Now, I know that there are openly gay people in Provo, but I know that the gay scene in Salt Lake is a little bit more intense. I am afraid of this because I am afraid that I will get into trouble. I am afraid that I will break the law of chastity my first weekend there.
(3) I am away from the Provo bubble. Even though there are some things that the Church and I don't agree on, I still want to be an active member. For some reason, I think that moving to Salt Lake will just...make me want to leave.
Why do I think like this? I really don't think Salt Lake is as bad as I am making it sound.
Maybe this is the "stupor of thought" thing...although, I really haven't prayed about it yet, nor have I thought it out. I'm just basically thinking and writing at the same time.
What do you guys think? Are there any Salt Lakers who read this blog? Any advice?
My yes answer to pure self interest. I would love you to move up closer by me. This way I could see you like, every weekend because Aaron and I could just come down to Salt Lake to party with you.
ReplyDeleteBut...pray. Pray hard.
Make up your mind how you are going to act if you move. This you will do to put up "safety blocks" to stop you before doing something stupid. Like, "Party with people you know." That way you can meet new people but your old friends will keep you from getting butt raped when you don't want it. :) I have safety blocks...they are good for everything.
We should talk on the phone.
Yes. Moving to Salt Lake from Provo was one of the better decisions I've made. Once you've made the move, you'll wonder how you ever survived in Utah County. Salt Lake is full of adults. Utah County is full of young adults. There is a *big* difference. There are also many more opportunities here. Opportunities for friends, opportunities for self-improvement, and for career advancement. I highly recommend this city!
ReplyDeleteAndy, sorry about he film school. I really like your attitude! Positive thinking is priceless.
ReplyDeleteMove. Your fears are understandable but you are in control of all of them. You don't have to be unchaste or do something stupid. And for so many objective reasons Salt Lake is better than Provo for you I think.
ReplyDeleteI learned this year that opportunity is an excellent guide for our lives. Despite all of my attempts to escape my little home town, I found very few opportunities for me outside.
ReplyDeleteThen, I found myself with an unexpected job offer-- one bigger than I'd dreamed of-- and found myself staying. I might not have an explanation, but it all worked out.
I agree with what's been said. There are days, yes, when I miss Provo, but there is just so much more here in SLC. And you don't have to change anything about you that you don't want to.
ReplyDeleteDecide who you want to be and associate with those who share similar view. You will be fine. Moving is an exciting thing. You have the unique opportunity to start over and be who you want to be.
ReplyDeleteGood luck and Merry Christmas!
Katrina-I will make sure that I pray really hard about this. It's something that I actually have been thinking about this for a while, but...I will not forget to pray.
ReplyDeleteHammer-I can't wait to get to know "real" young adults. I'm not gonna lie, I am getting a little tired of the whole...let's date and then get married...scene here in Provo.
Boskers-Always being positive is one of my better qualities.
Alan-You're right. I don't have to do anything stupid unless I choose to.
GMB-Opportunity is one thing I am searching for in my life right now...if I move, maybe I will find it.
Hidden-It feels as if there is nothing to do in Provo. It will be nice to have fun things to do in SLC.
Bravone-That's really what it comes down to, isn't it? Deciding who I am. I need to do that.
Everyone-I love you all! Thanks for all the comments! You guys are super fantastic great!