So, dear bloggers and friends,
Things will be ending with the boy. He is a great guy, clean, upstanding; everything that is attractive to me. However, I grew up in the theatre. I grew up in a sub culture where no personal bubbles exist. I grew up in a world where people are loud, obnoxious, back-biting, funny, awesome, and creative individuals. This boy did not grow up in that same world I did. I need someone who likes the same things I do.
Also, this boy is obsessed with sex and talking about it. I can't handle that. I mean, it's okay to briefly mention the idea, but to keep talking and talking and talking about it; it seems to me that the idea that he was such a good boy who wasn't obsessed with sex, is floating out the window. I am fine with that. He has his life and I have mine. I just don't want to associate myself with people who have their thoughts preoccupied with sex so much.
It would be beneficial to those who read this blog that we have done nothing physical with each other...at all. I can still take the sacrament this Sunday. All we have done is just enjoyed each others company. In the very least, I have just gained a new friend who just wants to talk about sex all the time.
I...just don't think I am ready for someone like this is my life right now. I am still very young. I would like a boyfriend, but...I don't think that this boy is the right one for me. It was nice to get to know him, and have the hope that there are guys out there who have "standards", but...I no longer want him in my life. And that's just the way it will have to be.
Funny thing is...he doesn't know I don't want him anymore. I will let you guys know how it goes. Thank you for supporting me! Love you!
At least your are finding boyfriends. Best to you as your search continues.
ReplyDeleteyeah, I agree with Sean. It is great that you were able to go on a some dates with a guy and see what you would like or not like in a partner. I think it would also be good for your self esteem. I want you to know that you are an awesome person and hot and you should feel good about yourself (including your body).
ReplyDeleteGood for you for doing what you want with the relationship.
ReplyDeleteIt was really hard, I am not going to lie. But, I think that it is the best thing for the both of us. I have learned how to put myself out there. I thought that he was going to someone who I could start a relationship with...but I think I was just uber twitterpated. This WAS my first time.
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