Boy! Just One Normal Gay Man

What can I say about my word cloud? When the image appeared on the screen...I took a sharp breath. I guess I have a lot of thinking to do. My initial reaction was to think, "Wow. I just want to be a normal man, with a wife and kids, and a family". Upon further reflection, I believe there may be something else hidden in this cloud of mine.

(For those of you who don't know, a word cloud takes a text from anywhere. It can be a website, a blog, an uploaded text...basically anything. It then finds the words that are used the most, or perhaps the most prominent. Basically, it reads your life and puts everything into perspective for you)

Could this subconscious paddle of thoughts be what I truly feel? That I really am just a normal person? With some flipping of the words, the most common ones actually make a phrase: "Boy! Just one normal gay man". And that is what I feel. I do believe that. I never thought that I would be able to say this, but I do feel normal. I feel like I am loved. I feel...right.

Looking further into my blog, it reveals the things that occupy my life and my thoughts. Funny, though...it has Church and God in really itty bitty letters. Hmmm, interesting.

All in all, this word cloud has really opened my eyes to see what I believe and what I feel. I no longer need to feel oppressed by other people and their ideals. I no longer feel the need to be perfect, for I know that is something unattainable in this life. I have decided to do my best. I will be a good citizen, a good son, a good partner, a good friend. Most of all, I will be

just one normal gay man.