That's me. I dream a lot. At last night, I had a crazy dream!
It was one of the strangest dreams I had ever had. I was with all my friends who are in the Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat cast. We were at some, cottage-type thing in the woods. One of my friends, we shall call her, Mary...decided she wanted to sleep with me. Or I decided I wanted to sleep with her. I think I called it a, "social experiment".
Then, the two of us proceeded to...ahem...you know...together in the bed. And then, one of my guy friends from the cast comes up to us, and says, "Um...you guys shouldn't do that." I say, "But its a social experiment, I just want to know what it's like!" He then left, leaving me and Mary to do our thing.
But...it gets stranger...I feel so weird and almost embarrassed for saying this...she takes off her pants and lo and behold...she doesn't have what it takes to be a woman, if you know what I mean. Instead of womanhood, she has manhood and it was starting at me in the face!
And then I woke up in a cold sweat, almost sick to my stomach.
I have NO IDEA what that dream means! I am so confused and...mind boggled. Basically, I am just uber froggled and wanted to share this experience with somebody.
And that's about it.
OK, as a totally non-credentialed non-qualified non-professional in this area I'll take a crack at telling you what I think it means. And remember, other people's opinions are usually worth what you pay for them.
ReplyDeleteYou still feel pressure to comply with the heterosexual norm. You're concerned enough about it that you're willing to consider doing risky things to prove you're mainstream. But inside you know that's not you, and if pushed, you would have to be true to what you know you really are. And that prospect still scares you somewhat (understandable, in your current environment).
And now I will go back to my jail cell with Pharaoh's butler and baker.